I'm feeling so tired & sick of everything. I'm losing myself, much. I hate myself too much, am I someone who's easy to push over? I need some pulling up, rather than someone's who is weak. I'm feeling all tired all over, why do you treat me as a substitute rather then a friend? I rather to be someone who's a stranger to you. I know I'm not some kind of gaming freak like you, but.. Am I someone that is needed to be mock at, or laugh & discriminated by you?
I don't understand why, is there a need for all those smilings and laughter you treated me, just be straight and tell me right in my face. What you want to do with me, & that's it. I'm so sorry. I need someone to cry with me now.